I went out early this morning to do something. I had to, it’s not like I wanted to. I usually stay at home unless I need to carry out a chore. Anyway, once I was out, I enjoyed the morning sunshine.
You see, my work is home-based. I am single, in my late twenties, a homie, and aloof type. Yeah, you name it. Life has always been bland and quiet for the past 6 years.
So, the thing is, I don’t always go outdoors. I stay at home most of the time. Before working home-based, I was actually thrilled to finally get to work at the comfort of my home. But then years later, things felt boring and empty. I am earning, though, I am not complaining about that. It’s just the deprivation of socialization started to kick in and it’s getting frustrating by the day.
I know I have the choice to go out and do my thing. But then, my personality is not the outgoing, adventurous, nor spontaneous type. I can be spontaneous at times, but that’s pretty much it.
I have few friends, but are mostly busy building their lives and their future, so I don’t get to meet them as often whenever or even if I want to. Life is tough. Although there can be other tougher problems to deal with, but then the psychological effects, the stress, it’s just isn’t healthy anymore. One thing I noticed since late last year is how bad my body copes up with stress. I get anxiety/panic attacks, irritable bowel syndrome, throat spasm, hyperacidity, and eczema. It’s pretty bad.
Today, I felt glad I went out. I actually finished what I had to do in less than 20 minutes, including the hike. I intended to hike to get that much needed sun exposure. Not only have I deprived myself from socialization, but also from sunlight and vitamin D. Upon going back home, I decided to stop and drop by a waiting shed. I thought it was too early to go home. I wanted to enjoy being outside. And it felt great!
I watched the cars driving along the highway. I looked at what the other people were doing. I enjoyed watching their happy faces. It brought smile to my face. I know these are the little things. The little things that I don’t get to see and experience everyday. I still had to work, but I decided to stay a little bit more. If I could have more time, I would have stayed there and enjoyed the view, the sound, the people, the activity, the happening. The thirst is real, I’m telling you.
And then I bumped into an old neighbor of mine. I smiled at him. He smiled at me and asked me what I was doing. It was a short conversation, but a light one. It definitely brightened my morning. That neighbor I see everyday, we didn’t get to have a little chit chat before that. Crazy! (what I have been doing in my life)
Anyway, the smell of outdoors pumps the release of my endorphins. I just realized that. It was so easy to smile at random people. The feeling was absolutely great. I felt that happiness. Today was a good one for me. When I got home, I checked my phone and I received a good news. The day just got better.
It’s always great to start the day with a smile. I hope I would be able to break that wall and create a routine wherein I could get that happy and positive vibes no matter what the situation is. Working at home deprives you of that much needed sunlight if you are not too cautious about your health. Coping up with stress becomes harder. Stress feeds depression and other physical illness. In order to fight that, I realized you have to be more engaged. Go out, get sun exposure, meet with people, or take a stroll. Give yourself that breath of fresh air.
It does help ease the stress and that feeling of isolation. To others out there who are also working home-based, especially those who are like me, still single and aloof type, do you have the same issues? How about those who aren’t aloof but are also working home-based? How do you balance your social life?