Nothing is ever going right in my life right now. Good thing I was able to solve emergency issues at work.
But my life is pretty much empty outside work. Single. No boyfriend. No luck. I am in my early 30s.
I want to travel instead, but I am too afraid to travel alone. If I can only do it once, then maybe I can do more in the future.
People tell me to pray my hardest so God would send that special someone for me. I never believed in that, but I met this wonderful individual. It was an unexpected meeting. I started praying. Almost, but not quite. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be. I just have to let it go.
I wonder what life is in store for me. I stay at home for the most part. The only thing positive is my work. I have the money to do what I want, but I am too scared to go out there. I am a mess! My social anxiety is killing the hell out of me!
I remember my sister told me I deserve to live alone because I don’t want to be around people. I have social anxiety, for Christ’s sake!
Life is hard for people like me. It is a torment. 😦
I wonder if God is looking down at me. I’m here, Lord. Don’t forget me!